But it does hurt a little......

I was filling out my 2011 calendar last night... birthdays, school holidays, a few doctor appointments and such... and thinking about goals and resolutions for myself in the new year.  I have really focused this holiday season on my family.  I have tried to live by the motto "It's not the stuff, it's the memories" and we have made LOTS of memories and new family traditions in the process.  I have been much less stressed, and so has hubby.  It has been great to spend quality time working and playing with my kids......... but only my kids.....

I realized how different things were from a year ago.  A year ago we were SUPER STRESSED!  Jim had been without work for nearly 3 months, and we were struggling.  We had so many people around us though to give us the strength and encouragement to get through it all.  Jim is working now, though still temporary, and we are making it back up a bit at a time... but on our own... and that does hurt a little.

A year can bring about a lot of changes.  People get new jobs and new responsibilities... start back to school... and get involved with the activities of their kids.  They find new hobbies... new friends... and if you aren't moving right along with them, you get left behind.  I don't think I am moving fast enough!

So, I go into 2011 with a renewed sense of family, a better understanding of how to be the kind of wife and mother I want to be, a financial plan that is doable right now, a fitness plan to make me healthier, and a realistic view of my social standing -- which is ranking right above hermit at this point!  LOL

I am not hurt that people are moving on with and moving up in their own lives... I am just finally realizing it happened... and that I missed it!

Things can change in the blink of an eye and I will pray for all of my blinks daily for getting me this far.

“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.”